10 February, 2016

death wish? no thanks, i've just eaten!

so this thing's been popping into my head of late and i know how horrible it sounds, but really, it's just a thought and it's an honest thought and it's actually fairly positive, although i realise it's hard to believe. anyway, here goes the back story.

i'm happy most of the time. or at least not unhappy. i'm fine. the world is...well, sorta fine, if you sorta squint, and cover your left eye, and only look RIGHT THERE, but you know, for me, it's ok. most of the time i focus on the stuff that's happening, speak to my friends, do the mindfulness schtick, etc. etc. yadda, yadda. and then, when the weight of politics or parking lots or bloodshed or hatred or rampant consumption gets too much, i wilt, and it is then that i have this thought that on the surface looks horrible but i find really really comforting:

i look at my face, i see it getting old and i think to myself, thank GOD imma die some day and i won't have to worry about this shit any more. and it makes me feel good.

so there you have it.

5 comments:

Zhoen said...

Ah, c'mon, throwing me soft balls this week. And on Ash Wednesday. Remember then that thou art dust and unto dust thou shalt return.

polish chick said...

zhoen - bad catholic over here. i've just come back from mardi gras, but blasted if i can remember its significance in the church calendar. i know there's some lenty-givy-uppy type thing, then some crucifixiony type thing, then some resurrectiony type thing, and that we're supposed to eat and/or not eat specific things at specific times. that's the best i can do for ya, and it ain't much. sorry!

Zhoen said...

Naw, just meant the comforting appeal of the lack of immortality.

the auntologist said...

It's just "this too shall pass," unless you start doing things about it, in which case: PROBLEM.

Tom said...

"Imma gonna die some day......." Yeah but....! Every cloud hassa silver lining? Anyway, Lent's good; makes austerity seem acceptable.